Reflections

Week 6 of my weight loss  journey.

Time to step on he scale. First foot, then he second...

240 pounds! 

I only lost one pound! 

Yet I lost a pound!

Even in Biggest Loser there is a point where the contestants only lose 1-2 pounds or none at all. 

I will call this my reflection week. 

A time to reflect on the fact that I have lost 15 pounds in 6 weeks! 

A time to reflect on he reality that I am, in fact, losing weight!

A time to realize that in 17 years this is the most weight I have ever lost consistently! 

I will reflect on the fact that this is just the beginning and I have so much farther to go, but with the optimism that I will lose the weight and WILL reach my goal! 

With school starting and football/cheer resuming, I will have most of he day to myself. Last year, that reality paralyze me and I sat at home, depressed and lonely; feeling as though my purpose as a homeschool mom was no more. 

This year, my purpose is to get healthy, to lose he weight that has inflicted me for years. My purpose is to remove the visible scar of abuse off of my body and completely heal from the wounds that kept me in bondage for years.

As I reflect, I remember a promise The Lord gave to me. I woke up at 4 am one morning in 2005 sobbing. I prayed and prayed trying to figure out what was going on in my soul. Then The Lord gave me a scripture e in Esther. It talked about her year of beauty treatments that she had received before she met the king. He Lord promised me that He was going to give me beauty treatments and I too would be able to stand before my King, whole, beautiful, confident and secure. I thought it would only take a year, like with Esther, but it has taken so much longer. 

Eight years later, I am still undergoing those treatments. I have been made beautiful in my spirit and my soul and have confidence and wholeness and healing in those deep crevices of my being; but now it is time for the flesh. It is time for my flesh to reflect the beauty that God had has established inside of me. 

Only 1 pound lost this past week... But I will take it! It is one pound closer to my goal. To the beautiful me; the healthy me; the active me. 

Reflections of my journey only give me more resolve to keep going; to keep fighting; to get up when I fall, dust myself off and keep moving forward. 

Reflect on your journey and let it be the motivation to a healthier, beautiful you!